urgh... i left with 11 days to study for my exams which i haven't even make a head start on it yet.. wth.. still rushing assignments and lab reports though its like last week of school... what even piss me off is that i still have lecture and tutorial this week... damn shitty.... feel so stressed and fucked up right now cause the exams are nearing and the current emotion status of myself (actually since last week or last last week) is that i feel like a dumbass which is not exactly helping the situation -_-

y i feel like a dumbass?? sigh.. i think all my friends are super smart thus feel stupid when i'm with them and there are evidences to show which are namely results -_- But I had to get rid of this irritating habit of feeling stupid cause i feel ermm like a idiot to feel stupid.. sigh but easy to say then done -_- what i really need is some time alone to sort through this myraid of feelings but situation don't warrant it.... wth...

seriously i can't wait for the holidays!!! i really need a breather to sort things through.. but one thing i do know is that i can only be me and no one else and i can't live by the standards of what other people had for themselves.. all along i was trying to be somebody else... sigh.. took me long to realise that-_- N i got to stop comparing myself with others n spot flaws i had =X urgh... ya so positve outlook i shall adopt despite the looming huge grey cloud of impeding sense of doomness that the exams bring-_-