don't know what the hell i'm doing - procrastination is the best thing I can do -__- dragging my ass over studying for my Friday test which i haven even started.. maybe i'm scared of failing or maybe i jus don care about it or maybe i'm too stressed over it ,demanding myself to do as well as my friends-_- which is damn hard to achieve..i know i shouldn't compare with my friends but it's like a in built tendency -_-



what is my goal for the future, what i want to do?
I dont' have answers to these 2 questions and now it's like i'm walking aimlessly and everything to me hold no interest just like a zombie... sigh...what is the point of studying ? is like study for the sake of studying...

I HATE SCHOOL... all those scheming shits and competitions...

Last night, my VP asked me to run as vice president for next semester and the reason behind me being chosen was that there is not enough seniors remaining for the next semester.. it's quite a sucky reason it's like a bobian situation that they choose me and not because i have the qualifications to do so... damn sad.. i'm very hesitant to accept it... what if i'm not committed, what if i screwed up... what if....

Lots of `what if ' running through my head and no solution =( URGH!!!!!!

on a sidenote, i finish my v day presents which is super early, bought a glass garden for 15 and roses for my stupid pig sister=p haha