what i really need right now is a shoulder to lean against and someone to tell me that everything is going to work out just fine..

sigh... actually i'm quite disappointed in myself =( cause at the start of the exam, i told myself that i'm going to prove to the people who looked down on me that they are wrong , that i'm not a slacker and dumb as they tink i'm... but till now, i still burnt midnight oil for the past 3 papers =( sigh and i also caught 3 movies in total in midst of exam which is suicidal... sigh.. really don't know what i want =S keep procratinating over studying over paper.. maybe the shiqi that my friends see is the true shiqi and that i'm living in self denial -_- that's why i'm still slacking... really i don't know what i want now.....

can't wait for my super long holiday...though the taiwan trip with my cousin and sister is cancelled cause my mother refused to let us explore on our own =( really looking forward to going overseas trip on our own but i guessed this is just another dream..

what am i going to do ??