Time does not make any difference does it? Within a span of 2 days, my holiday become an non enjoyable one though it does not seem anything exciting from the beginning.
Please be warned that the below will be full of emo whines or complains.
1) I.HATE.SCHOOL. Well, considering how much it screw up my remaining year. Initially, I thought that the school will be holding a core during the holiday so I made plans to free that entire month for the core including travelling, internship and a job. But looks like I really got a short end of the deal huh, I ended with none of the 3 and that the core is scheduled to the recess week. wtf.
2) I hate to point out the plain truth to my friend who obviously know it but had to force me to say out when I still spare a thought for her feelings. But then, at the later conversation, I just found out that I was sort of being used like a spare tire which I really really hate and that is a sure way to get into my black book for sure. And boy, when I discover it, the volcano erupted. Sorry if you don't spare a feeling/thought for me, likewise onto you. Sound harsh but that's my way of dealing such.
3) I hate to be out of job. well for starters, I hate to be poor and that will be the main reason. Plus with my track of bad luck and pessimism, it will be super hard to find a job for 2 months.
4) I hate my pessimism and negativity.
5) I hate imbalance. But occasionally, I just like to disrupt the balance of things to see the reactions and outcome. Or maybe I just had enough and I will just go by the impulse and end things instead of balancing them.
6) I hate thinking things through and through that I was kept awake till 3am which attributes to my foul mood the next day.
Please don't ask me to cheer up cause I failed to see the bright side now though thoughts are appreciated (really!truthfully) but sometimes words ain't enough.
ok I shall try not to be negative as negative attract more negative ( law of magnetic forces does not apply here).
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